It has been another challenging day with grief about EP
welling up from time to time. I spoke with Laura this evening
and she felt he was trapped and unable to ascend into his
spirit level and form. He is not inhabiting his cat body
here anymore but is still trying to find his way back here
to me and this home. Laura suggested I meditate and see if
I can help him. This all felt right to me but a test for
sure to do it for my own beloved animal child.
felt him in his cat form as if he was lying on my chest
with the words, "heart to heart". This
is how he often laid with me in the evening or how I carried
him (as if he was hugging me). I kept seeing how he walked
with the sun shining on his fur, how he was often waiting
for me to return home, sitting in the driveway. He watched
me leave and waited for my return.
like he was stuck in the horizontal portal, trying to walk
here. I asked him to show me what was around
and all he could tell was that there was darkness as he
tried to walk home and light above him. He did not want
me to see
much of his cat body and how it looked or how it was at
the very end. It is not what he was connecting into; he
was connecting into the lovely, big furry black imperturbable
form that I know so well. It wasn’t easy to direct
him to the vertical portal or his spirit form. The heart
connection between us was so strong and difficult to release
in order to evolve into the spirit lines instead.
I had to pull in a heart connection, through floods of tears,
with all of my healing circle and every loving friend I could
think of in order to make this disconnection, even with already
having all my main Divine Guides (A. Michael, Christ, Merlin,
Sanat Kumara and the Hathors) with us. I saw all of us connecting
into the flying circle (like the join-up with skydivers)
and pulling EP into that circle. I really tapped into Laura,
being she helped direct me and was able to give me enough
insight and strength to take this meditation on. Love is
definitely the key with these portals and transitions.
until I was in my indigo light form riding my white spirit
horse that EP was ready and able to fly
into his spirit form. We went through levels where he showed
his black jaguar form and eventually bits of color that
will eventually complete his fully ascended spirit level
Magenta was one of those colors.
I flew with him to the Central Sun to bask in the light
and recharge and reconnect with all the Divine. It was at
that point that we could look back and recognize the life
that he had just left. He became clearer and did a review
he had agreed to only come in for a half-life time here
in order to have the wonderful connections, adventures
and experiences he had. EP was 10-years-old in October.
with that knowledge, he said we never know the exact moment
when we are to be taken back to spirit. The surprise of
it for him plus his connection to me was what had him stuck.
He did tell me had evaded an exit several times prior to
this one and that he forgave the coyote that took his life
here. It was his time to leave. He said I will have answers
in the future and he will give me the answers in my heart.
He said I will see and sense him in those early morning
skies when I’m walking Bernie.